Hello. (Life Update)
(long post)
Hello.
It's really has been a long time, isn't it?
I have been looking at my old artworks for a while now, and oh boy the whole nostalgia of how it all started...
Looking back- I realized- I never really said anything when I exactly -parted- from this website. And the last thing I posted, I talked about a big pdf file containing the entire story of DPA (well, about that...) But! Let's talk about some stuffs first.
About How Things Are
I never stopped drawing, but as you can see of how deviantART's current state and how much it has changed- I have moved on from this platform. So are most of everyone, I think. I just realized I barely promoted myself when I exactly Moved away when I am looking back. You can find me under the same name(Torosiken) most of the time, but here's a list of websites I am currently active at in my carrd.
As most of you have noticed, I have switched interests these days, but I also happen to hang around less these days in fandoms. Things has gotten busy and sometimes, messy in real life. I have had my issues both with friends and family, life in general, and mostly with myself- I can't excuse myself from mistakes I have done in the past especially to those I loved and cared about, but sometimes there's not much to be done other than moving forward with life. I am aware I have changed, but also grew from who I used to be; in all the senses. But I guess I can't ever forget the roots of where I started and so here I am.
It's a little funny how different I used to be, and coming back I noticed I still have the label Hobbyist under my deviantART name. That's how it used to be, how it's all started out- a hobby. I never knew if I would've make it this far in life- in both literal sense. Judging I am not that far yet either- but anyway. I graduated my course in animation major in my absence from this website. Given I am still pretty slow compared to the other artist comrades, but it's still an accomplishment. And as for now, I guess I can proudly say I am officially working as an artist; a 2D Artist to be exact- and I have finally graduated from that "Hobbyist" title as I am now actually managed to land in this industry. Probably still late considering my age, I have still a long road to go. But to think how far I have come- I am quite proud of my own accomplishments. Even if I am slow, I'm going to keep on improving my skills and keep on moving forward.
As for life itself, it has been... well, life. Ups and downs, but to my own surprise I'm still standing today. I certainly didn't expect to make it this far... And I owe it to everyone I've met along my path- that's including you guys. After all, this place was
...The Point Where Everything Started
I was 13? 14? I don't certainly remember. But as long as I've lived, I always loved to create. I began looking back on all my reasons that makes me love to create. Back before I have a dA, I was playing around in forums and fansites. I learned basic coding and website making as I was very obsessed with blogs and alike. I posted some of my early works of spriting and arts and later on I decided to take a dip on full art.
I fell in love back in my "childhood" cartoon, Danny Phantom. And that's where it all began here. I met various people, got inspired... and I started to look forward to become an animator. In that meantime, I also created Darry and the entire DPA project that I'm going to say even up to this day is still one of my masterpiece in how much details went into that creation.
It was all a hobby. Drawing, writing, animating... and do you know what makes me happy the most at that time? The fact that I was creating all that could make people happy; could make you- viewers, happy- was the reason why I wanted to create more and more and more. Every single nice comments I received makes me happy how that art was able to make somebody smile. At that time, a naive young me think that I wanted to make the world happy- it was a naive thought. But thinking back to it again; I truly wanted to be a reason someone is having a good time with my creation, just like how I am having a good time with all the cartoons I watched and the video games I played.
Looking back in those times, I am reminded how I used to feel unwanted, unneeded, unimportant, useless- I am worthless(I still kinda do, mental health is a btch. I'm managing). It really made me happy when I was finally good for something- even if it's only giving a momentarily happy moment to strangers who saw said works. Thus, art gave me a meaning in life- more than just a coping method it was all started with; it became my reason to keep on living. So that when I die I will keep living on in my works.
And so things happened, bla bla bla... and all I could say is that, now I finally decided and learned to live for myself. And then I became empty. I got confused. I asked myself why I am doing everything that I am doing. Do I want to keep going? Do I want to stop? Looking back into my roots, do I truly only chose my dream to purse this career simply to fulfill that void of loneliness and acceptance in my childhood? Or is there something more? That's when I realized I always have been attracted to creating, even before all of these began in deviantART. I remembered being a little child excited about drawing and wanting to actually create something more with it, for myself. Because I find that fun. Being reminded of that, I've decided that I do want to keep pursuing this path because I am a rockhead who don't know when to stop- a rockhead who love creating things so much that I don't want to be stopped. Even when my own mental health has been screaming at me so many times to just give up in so many different ways. And I guess, in the end- I do want to be an artist. for myself.
Moving On
Moving on, time keep going forward. So is life. I miss a lot of things here and there. What will it be for the future? Only us ourselves can see the answer for that as we take a step into it. I have missed a lot of people from my past, but such as life, we only can move forward. May the path cross again some day in the future, I wouldn't complain about that... But I hereby apologize to everyone who is reading this, for all the past mistakes I've done- and maybe for the upcoming ones; as human beings will always make mistakes and grow from it.
As for my goal- even though it may have shifted a bit from the original one, I knew for sure that I'm not quite there yet. And I would love to keep going and improving while at it. I might be slow in doing so, but I have gotten this far already and I would love to keep going to see where this path leads.
And as for the... uh? What's that?
Oh right...
Darry
I miss this idiot so much to be honest.
The book is not done. I have gotten busy and distracted ever since the last post. But hey I finished the databook up to season 1.
I still have season 2, and then 3-4, and future, and AUs to go. The book is far from complete, but judging when was I posted that journal again... HOLY COW IT WAS 4 YEARS AGO WHAT????
You know what? Okay, fine. You can have the raw doc up to s1 with a messy s2 "preview" pdf file for now. Maybe I'll update the file someday. I don't know when exactly. I can't promise anything, but I appreciate- and I meant it; truly appreciate ALL of you who was there for me through all these. From when it's all started- and even now- it meant a lot to me. And to you guys who have kept waiting and actually still here for this... stupid... boy.? Thank you so much. It still blows my mind how much people actually are into this son of mine. It does meant a lot to me.
Okay, anyway without further ado- here's the file:
>>Darry Phantom's Adventures: The Tails Behind (v0.1) << RAW PDF Main File. Character Backstory, Concepts, Season 0-Season 1 + Rough S2 Preview
(extra note: the S2 "preview" is actually how I typed things down in my main DPA planner file. I still have the S3-4 notes in that same planner file but like, I don't think I should show it off for now. Maybe later if I have tidied it up a bit)
Once again, I'm saying thank you for being patient with me for all these time. And I meant all these time. For being here, for supporting me in some point- even if you don't think twice or so about it, it really shaped how I am today.
This is not a goodbye, this is not a see you later post. Thank you for letting me catch up with all of you again after all these years. I'll definitely look forward to where the future brings to us.
With this, I officially can say:
2D Artist // H̶o̶b̶b̶y̶i̶s̶t̶ Aspiring-to-keep-going-as-professional // Varied
Toro, out.- from deviantART, for now.
See you guys later here when I ever updated that pdf file because I see no other place fitting for me to update about DPA ever than where it originally resides OR-
see you in the other platforms, my guys 
Coming Not-So Soon knowing my laziness and procrastination habit, and being busy and distracted by Sanji's ass OTL
Oh well whatever X"D I will just use 8 probs
Here we go!~ I was pretty late in posting this but whatev
SOOOO THIS KID OVER HERE
(tagged by
)8 FACTS HUH
UUUUUUUUUUUHM let's see if I can think up of things that I haven't spill out already
1. Darry games a lot, if you are not aware already. He probably has 0.5 to 1 minus for his eyes but he refused to wear glasses.
2. I don't give him any middle names because I can't really think of one. But if I give him one it's probably Alex.
3. If y'all are not aware yet, he is quite a normie who goes with the flow and things that is hot and happening on that moment. (definitely not the type I like irl tbh XD)
4. Darry can speak esperanto. His parents taught him so he can talk with Wulf. Darry don't use esperanto much, though.
5. He is actually a genius IF ONLY he bothers to use his brain. You know the difference between brain-smart and textbook-smart? Vio is textbook smart. Darry is a brain smart kid but this boy just. don't. bother. to. He is to lazy and take himself as stupid when he fails in tests.
6. He is actually your typical annoying stereotype cishet white boy. Probably goes a bit iffy at LGBT and all. You can smack his head for that if you want.
7. The only reason he is the only one who calls Violine by Vio is because they've been friends since forever. Back in the childhood when he was just learning to talk, he had problem calling Violine's name so he ended up calling her just by Vio and it stuck.
8. Darry's ghost sense is still blue even because headcanon ghosts are cold, and that he have very small dose of danny's ice powers THOUGH he inherit danny's fire powers as his main core (explained before here
) Move on to the second tag
(tagged by
)1. is a shadow
2. the fact i spoiled his existence is a spoiler already
3. his origin? it's in an episode but i don't even know if i should even spoil it to y'all
4. he can switch place with darry
5. he is tied to darry because he was created while being related to him
6. fine i am spoiling it. it was invention malfunction and shits happened.
7. rather than "evil" he is just very very jealous that he don't have a main body to gain freedom. (as a shadow, his movements are tied)
8. apparently can overshade darry and then his shadow disappears when that happens
tagging
pls do El
Stole this meme
since it seemed fun P:Send me character and I will :
*Favorite Moment:
*Favorite Outfit/Form:
*Favorite Line/Quote:
*Attractiveness Rating:
*Song That Reminds Me Of Them:
*Random Headcanon:
*Romantic/Sexuality Headcanon:
OTP:
Loved Ship:
Liked Ship:
Neutral Ship:
NOTP:
Crack Ship:
Crossover Ship:
Friendship/Brotp:I don't know if I can list all of my fandoms here since you know there are too much of them. But I guess most of you can tell what I forget to list by going into my gallery's content right?
-Danny Phantom
-Gravity Falls
-Over the Garden Wall
-Pokemon (everything excluding the anime)
-Digimon (Adventure 1 and 02 and tamers only)
-Undertale
-Detective Conan/Magic Kaito
-NARUTO (up until Boruto movie. THAT BORUTO MANGA DOESN'T EXIST!)
-One Piece
-Kingdom Hearts
-Shingeki no Kyojin
-Kuroko no Basuke
-ok i kinda forgot the rest but I guess you guys know by the contents I draw haha
go!!!!
OC Tag
So like I got a tag... it's been a while ago but I will try to answer it now haha XD
Tagged by
2.) Post 8 facts about your character.
3.) Tag 8 other characters.
1. Her name is actually not a name and I just came up with it randomly OTL *shot* I figured V.F. is a cool initial and so I just gave her that name... Kinda not wanting Viola or Violet because... idk? Don't sounds quite right for her look... in the end settled with Violine. And I kinda put the blame on Tucker for choosing a random name that just sounded pretty without looking at the book because he was so happy *shot*
2. Her huntress suit is white and pink because pink is a lighter color of red, and both parents are connected to red (red huntress and Tucker's trademark red beret). And opposite to Valerie's red-black, Violine's is pink-white.
ok seriously i don't really know waht to list here OTL a hela random facts can be found in the ask DPA crew
3. Her first kiss was on Episode 5
4. Darry is the only one who calls her by the name "Vio". Originally going to be called "V.F." but author changed that
5. Likes to read and interested in knowing new things. Is the only nerd in A-listers, and is the smartest kid at the school.
6. She don't really talks to people first unless she is already close to them. (like Darry)
7. A lot of Darry fangirls envies her closeness with him.
8. Because of how close her parents are (esp Tucker) with Darry's parents, the two families are already acting like one big family at times. She calls Sam by Aunt and Danny by Uncle.
yeah i really don't know what I listed so I just stated the obvious 8))))
~Toro the random deviant